Flash fiction: Tears
I recently learned of a style of writing called flash fiction. Rather than restate what it is, here’s a link to a Wikipedia article that describes it in some detail Flash Fiction. Generally speaking, a piece of flash fiction should be no longer than around one thousand words.
Well, I was so intrigued by the concept that I decided to write a short piece about something that’d been in my thoughts for a number of years now. So, here it is.
Tears
Michael and Claire were married amidst a fury of passion and love. Neither could imagine life without the other, so when it came time for Michael to leave his bride home alone for the first time, he wasn’t sure what to expect. From the vantage point of years gone by, Michael thought of that first departure and what had struck him the most about it.
Tears.
She had stood by the garage door as he’d backed out of the driveway, her face awash in tears that streamed down her cheeks. He recalled how sad he felt as he watched the love of his life wiping her eyes while she shivered beneath her robe, the chilly fall wind blowing through a gray morning.
Tears.
By the time he’d pulled out of the driveway, his stomach ached at the thought of leaving her for the week as he travelled on business. He took one last look back. Claire, still weeping, blew him a kiss.
Tears.
They were the one constant Michael could count on each time he had to leave his wife. Whatever else happened, he always knew that he’d see those lovely, blue eyes admitting her loss of his presence, if even for only a matter of a few days. They kept those times of travel bearable, for he could barely hold on while he was away from his love.
Tears.
It was time to go yet again. It was his job; he had no choice. He kissed her gently and touched her cheek, staring into her eyes, as if perhaps they would linger in his thoughts more clearly the longer he took them in. She smiled weakly, but there was no happiness to be found. Nor was there the despair he’d seen in years past. Nor were there … tears
No tears.
They were gone. He looked into her face and felt the familiar sting of sorrow well up in his eyes. Her dry eyes averted his, glancing away as if afraid of revealing the truth. He kissed her lips gently, then shuffled to his car.
Where were they today?
He sat behind the wheel, peering through the windshield as he always did. But instead of seeing his wife crying, he saw only an empty smile filling an empty face. He started the car, placed it in gear, and began rolling out of the driveway. His eyes never left her, though hers rarely caught his. He glanced behind himself as he entered the street. When he looked back, she was gone. The garage door was closing.
His tears fell.
On writing: overcoming writer’s block
I’ve been struggling with writer’s block for months now, barely dabbling on my most recent WIP whenever I could briefly unstick the cogs of creativity in my brain. Seriously, it’s felt like someone filled my brain with paste. I was at a loss as to how to clear out the glue that had effectively clogged my synapses. But this weekend I take heart in the possibility that my mind, thoughts, and fingers might have finally come unglued (in a good way, of course).
Yesterday, a relaxing Saturday without any real chores to do or things to think about, I sat down in front of my computer and began doing the usual: read news, check facebook, read blogs, check facebook, surf and repeat until time has been wasted. You know, all those things we tend to do to avoid opening up the manuscript and actually typing. Finally, though, I opened up Scrivener (an amazing piece of software for writers available for a ridiculously low price) and loaded up my current work.
There it was, staring me in the face, daring me to type even one word. Despite the fact that I really liked all that I’d already written, for the life of me it felt like chains were holding down my arms, making it impossible to reach the keyboard. But this time, I persisted, because somewhere deep down inside, I could feel things loosening up. And more importantly, I had an idea in my head that I wanted to get down on paper. And I liked the idea.
I typed a sentence, paused, then typed another sentence or two. I reread what I’d just written.
Good stuff. Keep it up, Dave.
So I did. And I kept typing words until I was, dare I say it, writing! It felt good, but in a strange sort of way. It was kind of like waking up from a deep sleep, when your head is still a bit foggy and you feel like a long stretch is needed before you can fully wake up. Well, this weekend, I began to wake up from a lengthy writer’s nap that’s had me floored for way too long. All told, I managed to write over one thousand words. That’s something I’ve haven’t been able to do in long, long time.
Do I now know the secret to beating writer’s block? No. But I think I can at least take solace in knowing that if — or perhaps that should be when — it does strike me again (and it will), persistence is all that will be needed. It’s the only thing guaranteed to (eventually) lift me out of that dreaded literary black hole that devours one’s creativity and imagination.
For now, I can say that it feels good to be back … finally.
One hundred K down, twenty to go.
–dp